New Years Resolutions?

Yes I know, the dreaded resolution. The promise everyone makes to change. The one promise that nobody ever sticks to for longer than MAYBE a month. Honestly I can see why!  Do people really think they are going to go to bed and magically wake up the next morning being a new person just because it's a new year?  Some people may stick to them but the majority of people don't.  Personally I have never stuck to any, but I know why.  It's because I make unrealistic resolutions. Unrealistic to me anyways. I've done em all from eat better to budget my money better.  New year new me?  HA!  Not this girl.
With that being said I am no longer going to make a resolution and go to bed expecting to wake up a new person. I am going to make resolutions that I know I can stick to.  This year my resolution is to try to be a better wife and mother.  See that word I put in there... TRY!  That way if I get off track I can pick myself up and keep trying.  I am not promising to be a better wife and mother. I am promising to try my hardest.
Those of you who know me may be thinking "Dawnielle, you already are a good wife and mother." And that may be true, but I know I'm not the best I could be.  Lately I have taken advantage of my husband, a man that has accepted and loved me and my children knowing we are very flawed. When I first started dating him I did everything I could to come off as the perfect woman.  I catered to him, cleaned his house while he was at work and went above and beyond to make him happy.  As thing's got comfortable though I started slacking.  I let the house go for longer than appropriate, let myself go and stopped going above and beyond. So I am going to try to be the girl I was when we started dating 5 years ago.  I am going to push myself to appreciate everything he does for us just as he appreciates what I do manage to get done. I am going to do things that I should do as a wife instead of just doing it occasionally. I have a man who works full time and cleans the house... Yes.... A man that CLEANS! I need to start doing my part.
As far as being a better mother,  yes I love my kids unconditionaly and I would be lost without them.  As most of you know I did lose them in a nasty custody battle with my ex.  I missed one yr of my sons life and 2.5 years of my daughters life. When they were gone I wished I played with them more and hugged them more.  When they came back I did do just that.. For a short while. Then I fell into my old habits, I let the electronics and tv entertain them more than I should. I shoo them away more than I should using excuses like 'I'm tired' or 'I'm busy'. Truth be told half the time I'm not busy, tired yes but that's a norm for me.  I need to remember they aren't going to be little forever. My son will be 18 in a little over 6 years. And he will be more interested in spending time with his friends than with me much sooner than that.  I need to remember what it was like when I didn't have them. So I am going to try to spend more time with them and get on the floor and play with them more. For Christmas I actually got a couple board games we can play together.  I need to try to be more patient and understanding. I need to remember that both my oldest kids suffer from social/emotional disabilities, and it's a daily struggle for them as well.
So that is my resolution for 2017, I am not going to promise to magically change overnight. And I'd be lying if I said I am not going to slip up and revert back to my bad habits.  But I am going to try my hardest not to.  And if I do I'll just brush myself off and try again!
So do you have a resolution yet?  Leave a comment and let me know.  And don't forget to subscribe.